FLOWING RANDOM THOUGHTS...

Am i being mean if a friend asked me, "Do you still love me?" The mere fact that it was an easy question, yet I didn't actually gave the answer. I just asked "What kind of question is that?" A follow up question, "Do you love her more than me now?" At the back of my mind, I could absolutely give her an honest answer with YES. But, i refused to because I know how it feels. You know, things changed. Far different from how we talk before. It's like there's a big barrier between us. Attachment leading to detachment. Quite hard to be true but, I'm kind of dealing with it now...

The two of them are different. They both have their own unique personalities. They are both close to my heart. They have their own way on how to make me feel "Hey I'm your friend!" But, if I am going to weigh things now, I can say that I'm now closer with the new found friend. I really don't know what happened. Maybe there are just things which remain unexplainable. Let it just remain as it is.

I just realized one thing, that TIME FRAME when it comes to friendship doesn't really have to do with "I should be closer with you coz' we've been friends for such a long time and vice versa." It just sucks. And I know it's unfair. But, the moment you feel like things aren't the same as the way they used to be, I think it means something...

I don't know if it is just me, or do I have a social problem... I don't know if I should feel sorry for making her feel like sometimes I don't care. I'm kinda figuring out the reason why ended up feeling like this. And I found out that CONSTANT COMMUNICATION really matters when it comes to friendship. The OPENNESS, the NATURAL FLOW OF CONVERSATION. Some may say, there are those friendship which succeeded even when they talk once in a blue moon. Well, we have different concepts of friendship and I respect what others think about it. Before, I can tell all things like "I don't need to hide anything from you coz' we're so close friends." But now, it's like there's something which stops me on sharing things. It's sad, but it's really happening now. I tried bringing back the connection but I can't hardly feel it now.

I thought of not telling her what I really feel right now coz I know she can feel it. She noticed it already. I just don't think it would be a better idea to admit to her frankly coz I know it will just caused too much pain. Afterall, she's still my friend. And that I still care. It's just that, we just have to deal with the concept of THE ONLY CONSTANT THING IN THE WORLD IS CHANGE...

A Priceless Moment to Remember [August 5, 2011… Rakenrol Jamming with Yeng Constantino ]

Oooops! Wait! Let’s have a quick recap… [Imagine the rewind soundJ]

Three weeks ago, July 13, 2011, Tuesday, 4 days before my birthday [yes, it’s still fresh in my mind, how could I forget thatJ], my bestfriend and I went to MU Live. I promised myself that I need to see Yeng Constantino in person, grab the chance to take a picture with her and if given a little little chance, to atleast have a word with her. That would be the best and perfect birthday treat ever. It was all well planned. I was highly excited that night and I couldn’t explain the feeling. So, we got there just in time. Hours passed. Until I heard murmurs and conversations from the side that Yeng won’t make it that night because she needs to rest her voice and Juris will have to take her place. Long pause… Long pause… Long pause… It’s like everything’s in a stop motion except me and I want to just oppose with a doubtful face and say “Come again? I think you’re talking non-sense and you’re definitely giving us the wrong info.” Then several minutes had passed again and I wasn’t able to absorb the info yet. “Did I just hear it right?” I asked myself again and again and again. Right there and then, I can clearly hear my bestfriend’s voice and “OH MY GOD! IT’S FOR REAL. NO YENG FOR TONIGHT! ” That was really sad. L

Fast forward… [Imagine the forward soundJ]

Yeng’s concert is fast approaching and I’m really decided to be there and watch it because the MU Live experience was really unfortunate one. Again, it was all well planned! That time, I’ll be with the company of a close friend/niece. But then, still conflicts occurred. We tried to find ways and we ended up with the same opinion which is “I WON’T BE ON YENG’S CONCERT!” It directly came from my mouth and I couldn’t believe I’m saying it! Coz’ I consider things like “Will I enjoy the show by myself?” So, that’s a double epic fail.

A week before the concert… I’ve watched several tv promotions, tuned in to several radio tours, read some articles online and other sources about the upcoming concert. I couldn’t stop thinking and feeling disappointed, frustrated and upset everytime I hear Yeng saying “it would be a great show” and remind everyone to grab a ticket now. That time I was already thinking twice. It’s like I can’t really imagine that I’ll be missing that great night! Until, I dropped by at Yengsters page. There were games posted where in everyone has the chance to win free tickets. Again, free tickets! If I’m not mistaken, I think that time, 4 free tickets were already given. Those Yengsters who weren’t fortunate enough to win the games were asking another game. But the admin said “As much as we want to give away free tickets, we don’t have too much.” Many felt bad and I’m one of them.

A day before the concert, someone posted a link in Yengsters page that there is another way to win free tickets. I immediately browse it. It’s true and they’ll be giving away 6 free tickets! I followed the instructions correctly and I even asked my cousin to do the same thing so that we’ll atleast have two chances to win. Good thing it won’t be based with the number of likes instead, winners will be picked randomly. And on the day of the concert, result will be posted at exactly 12 noon. I told myself I won’t expect but at the back of my mind, I really am expecting. Come what may.

Same day, dropped at Yengsters page again. One of the admins posted “One free ticket will be given away tonight. Just stand by and prepare for the game.” Just in time… Everybody’s waiting for the game!!! All were excited and aggressive/competitive enough to win the ticket. Again, I wasn’t expecting but at the back of my mind, I really am! Hahaha. Gooogle’s ready! And the question was posted. I was tensed! Seriously! After I google some items I wasn’t able to answer by myself, I was able to post my complete answer at the comment box. I was confident enough with my answers! Thanks to Google! J I browsed other answers of other Yengsters, I was glad enough; I was the only one who posted completely correct answers. And the admin posted “We already have a winner!” I was in jitter mode! I browsed again the wall post, the question and other answers posted only to find out, it was a triple epic fail! L My God! I wasn’t able to read the instructions clearly. Last note was about, “ATLEAST 8 CORRECT ANSWERS!” There were 10 items, I thought…. Whew! Never mind!!!!! Almost there!!! But what did I do? Gash!!!

Moving on… August 5, the day everyone’s waiting!!! I woke up early for no reasons. Am I excited? Should I be? Am I sad? Well, probably. Do I still have time to make a move? I bet it’s too late. It was a mixture of emotions. But the bottom line, I won’t be able to witness a grand epic night. I wasn’t feeling well, like I want to just blurt out and cry. Seriously… I was highly nervous while waiting for the result… I can hear myself hardly praying at 12noon, crossing my fingers so tight!

Drum rolling… with a fast heartbeat! I was really feeling cold!

As I stopped by to check the result, two winners were already posted, and I was like, here I am again… “Will it be a quadruple epic fail?” I was already speechless. I restarted my laptop right away… I was convincing myself, “Its okay. Don't feel bad. There’s still many next time…”

Two hours later, I opened my Facebook account. Shoot!!!!!!! One message! I opened it. Boooooooom!!!

I was really shocked!!! I was yelling and shouting! My hands were shaking! Well, I grabbed the opportunity! I texted the contact person and confirmed my attendance and other details. Several minutes ago, Sir Ryan San Juan (contact person from Wentot's Thoughts) texted me again if I wanted to bring anyone with me to the concert coz’ one winner backed out. So, they’re giving me one more ticket. I immediately replied yes. I was looking for a companion then. I texted my bestfriend but unfortunately, he wasn’t able to see my text message earlier. I also tried convincing my cousin but he was tired from work. I also texted other high school batchmates who’s near at my place so we could go together at the venue but no one confirmed. I also tried convincing two of my closest friends from college. One didn’t reply, and then the other one was already asking for details. But, unfortunately, she needs to accomplish her chores for that night. If only if I informed her earlier she said. That’s why I explained to her what happened. So, bottom line… I’ll be watching the concert all by myself. I informed Sir Ryan that I won’t have any companion and that I was sorry for that. One ticket wasted! Sigh!

At exactly six in the evening, I left the unit. I was very relaxed that I’ll be on time. I had two hours travel to Aliw Theater. One hour later and I reached Quiapo with terrible traffic. I left the jeepney, and it was already raining hard. Good thing I brought my sweater with me. I didn’t expect the change of weather coz’ the sun was brightly shining when I left home. Then I rode another jeepney to Vito Cruz. I was really wet! Traffic still… And I texted Sir Ryan and inform him my location. I was worried that I might be late. Panic mode! Good thing, I still have 20 minutes remaining when I reached Vito Cruz and I need to ride another vehicle to Aliw Theater. I was really in a hurry! And as expected I encountered many Yengsters who’s also on the way to the concert venue. Most of them were students. I got the chance to talk to one of them named Erwin, a second year college student who came all the way from Caloocan. We kept our company until we reached the venue. Then I met Sir Ryan with his wife. He handed me the ticket and asked me if he could take a picture of me holding the ticket.

I was really happy! Gosh! I can’t believe it! I was haggard but it doesn’t matter anymore, what’s important is I was really excited for the concert! J

As we enter the venue, I've encounter different individuals who definitely came for just one reason, to support Yeng Constantino.

Inside Aliw Theater... Everybody's waiting for Yeng to come out the stage. Some were shouting, some were bracing themselves while relaxing at their respective seats. Thanks to Chiro band and 3AM band for gracing us with their talents while waiting for the performer of the night.

Here we go..... Camera's set!

YENG'S Voice over: Shhhhhhhh... Aliw Theater....

MUSIC FADE UP! J

Here's the link of my own copy of the opening. click it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6XZyrD9SBoA

Goosebump opening!!! If you are going to watch the video, I was shouting ROCK YOU! Hahaha. That's what you call OPENING NUMBER! BLAST! I tried not to move so often so as to capture good video angle but I really can't helped it but join the crowd as Yeng sings We Will Rock You and Yugyugan Na. My eyes were really intact at the stage. I was amazed! It's like the feeling of being at the cloud nine. I wasn't dreaming! It's for real! I'm seeing Yeng performed infront of me, infront of her bunch of supporters...

Anyways, here are some photos I grabbed from Yengster's Admin Rinna Leong and Xymei Crisostomo. Maybe next concert, I'll be able to capture pictures of Ms. Yeng Constantino with my DSLR. As of now, can't afford! Haha. Wishful thinking. J

Photos arranged according to the sequence of the concert.

Opening

With Tutti Caringal

With Gloc9

With Raimund Marasigan

Time In Different Versions

With Maria Aragon

With Ivan Dorshner

Jeepney Live MV Re-enactment

With Sam Milby

With Mr. Gary Valenciano

4th Album and Bamal na Aso Santong Kabayo Live Performance

My own copy of the Finale

I was able to capture one before the battery got empty

What can I say aside from praise releases? Remarkable night indeed! Roller coaster of emotion. The effort was all worth it from the staff, guest performers and Yeng herself. The moment she said it'll be a 200% performance at her best, precisely her point! Yeng Constantino, you made all your supporters proud of you!

After the concert, you know the feeling of you don't want to leave the concert venue because you really can't believe what just happened! The show lasted for almost 3hours. It's as if you could wish it never last! Hahaha.

Outside Aliw Theater, still with the company of Erwin. We were sight seeing the Yengsters Admins. We wanted to approach other Yengsters but we were so shy. Until I saw a familiar face, Aliessa Gratil, we already had a conversation through facebook. At first I waved at her just to know if she recognized me, and she did. I approached her and had a little conversation. It's but natural to feel uneasy right? Haha. After I approach Aliessa, Erwin approached Ate Myeth Ramos, whom he always chat in facebook. She's one of the admins also. I was just listening at the side while they're talking. Maybe next time we see each other and other Yengsters, I already have that courage to approach each one of them. And be able to say, "HEY! I'M A MEMBER! I'M ALSO A YENGSTER!" J

I think this proves how fan I am. I never did this in my whole life! I swear! Just that night! So close!!! I could almost tap her back and shoulder that night when I waited for her to come out after the concert. I was really speechless. My God!!!

I grabbed this photo from Gina Sobrevega

Yeng was shouting I LOVE YOU YENGSTERS!!!

I was suppose to post this the following day after the concert but unexpected circumstances occured. Then the following days, I wasn't really feeling well. As much as I want to finish the blogpost, I really can't think of the proper words to say and type. Sorry for the delay. Hehe... I just hope I come up with a worthy material out of this. I am just one of those ordinary bloggers who wanted to contribute for the said concert.

So, the bottom line...

Ms. Yeng Constantino/Ate Yeng, thank you for inspiring me and a lot of youth all over the world. You are an epitome of beauty, intelligence, character and talent. I'll always be one of those bunch of Yengsters shouting I LOVE YOU YENG!!! J